2.26.08

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

I haven't written in awhile, I know--my last entry in here was a prayer ten days ago. Tonight was youth, and instead of the usual "David talks, we listen" deal, we had an "open discussion", during which we talked about David's Top Ten Do's and Don'ts of Dating. =] I did of course agree with everything he covered because I've been thinking about that with myself A LOT. I'm not sure how much of it I've written about, but I had thought about my boundaries, about what total abstinence and purity mean to me, and all that, and as David was covering this stuff, I couldn't find a single place where I need to improve or where I had messed up in the past. THAT is what has been worrying me the most, in my Christian walk as well. Not that I think everything is perfect, but I'm SATISFIED, because where I am now is so much better than before, but only in certain ways. I'm settling for "okay", thinking that where I am is good enough, when it's not! I asked God earlier tonight to just search my heart, strip away anything that is hindering our relationship and my potential, and reveal to me places in my life that need to be changed. I'll keep praying about that, and I believe- I know -God will do that. Even if I don't realize it, I'll look back sometime down the road, and see a difference.

God changes us, guys! It's always amazing to witness that, whether it's your life or someone else's. For example, my testimony is pretty boring. I was never into drugs, sex, blatant rebellion, or anything "exciting". I've had my fair share of lies and attitudes, but nothing that anyone would consider "big". However, it's those little aspects that God changed in my life. My thoughts on certain matters, my relationships with people and being observant of how I act and my view of myself, even...God has affected all that, and I am so thankful! I can only pray that He would not allow me to settle into the annoying rut of acceptability and satisfaction with myself and where I'm at. To me, that seems incredibly dangerous...almost like the whole "pride comes before the fall" thing.

Well, it's late, and although I could go on and on, I should get to bed, and you should go read your bible. =]]

Until later,
Courtney