2.11.08

Sunday, February 10, 2008

I don't really know what to say tonight, except that I haven't written in a long time. I've developed a prayer list of seven people who I want to begin praying for daily, although they aren't the only ones. Sometimes, though, I run out of things to say for those who aren't saved. I find myself repeating the same petitions over and over, because I know that there is only so much God can do for them if they haven't been adopted into His family...

This morning in Sunday-school we discussed John 15:1-8, about the vine and the branches. We talked about what that means spiritually and how we can apply it to our lives. One of the questions we had to answer was something along the lines of "What does a Christian producing good fruit look like?" No one really had a better answer than "Alex" (lol), so I went to quote Galatians 5:22, which flat-outs list characteristics that kind of person would have. For some reason, though, someone shot me down before I even finished. I didn't understand--I thought it was a pretty alright answer. But as I'm sitting here thinking about, God is reminding me of 2 Timothy 1:7, which says "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline". I'm not sure what that spirit of power should be used for, but I do know that I don't always display that. Now I'm not saying I need to demand every one's attention--not at all. But maybe, just maybe, I shouldn't give up so easily when someone doesn't like my ideas or thoughts. If their reason for thinking that my answer is incorrect is a JUST reason, and not a selfish or immature one, then fine. Otherwise, I should make sure my point gets across, and ignore the feeling of insecurity that kind of person would cause me.

You know, it's interesting how I start an entry with nothing to say, and end up writing three pages in this composition book. Writing helps me clear my thoughts and allow God to speak to me.

It must be an amazing feeling to know that you're right where God wants you. Oh, I'm so proud of Alex! I can't wait to see what God does with him!
...I can't wait to see what God does with me!

Until later,
Courtney