desire, cont'd

Monday, January 7, 2008
*continuation*

If I could, I'd tell the most fashionable girl around that she doesn't need a guy to make her happy. It seems like all this guy is doing is causing her pain and misery. I'd tell her that the way to heaven isn't what she thinks it is, but only through a relationship with Jesus Christ will she live to see that glorious city. I'd tell her that He loves her more than she could know right now, and that He'll never hurt her. She's good at faking it--she really is. But I can tell that in her eyes, life ain't too sweet right now.

God opened up an opportunity for me to talk to one of these girls today. It wasn't much, but He gave me a glimpse into her home life, and if she had gone into much more detail I would have cried. The weird thing is, she showed NO emotion. I don't just mean on her face, either. Just the way she talked about it, like she's totally used to it, and doesn't know that there is something BETTER for her out there!

Tomorrow, I'm going to that class expecting God to work again. Others may not see it yet, but God's GUNNA use me in there, and then they will. I just pray that I'll have the courage. All those kids in there seem to have their feet firmly planted in who they think they are. When I stand next to them, I realize my own sense of identity is not nearly as strong as it should be.

Switching gears, in my quiet time I learned what turning to God for help instead of friends and family truly means. God showed me that by talking to Him about it first, I hear what I really need to hear. Friends and family will, many time, just tell you what they know you WANT to hear, and not what will actually benefit you--now AND down the road.

So tomorrow, I'm putting this into action. Before talking to a friend or adult about a problem I'm having, I'm going to talk to God about it. Then, I'm actually going to WAIT for His answer, instead of rushing of to ask someone else. And I WILL follow Him.[Based off Psalm 146]

Until later,
Courtney

"Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the Lord his God..." --Psalm 146:5