reticent?

I have a strange feeling in my heart.
I’m not real sure how to react to everything.
Grandma made a good point--in one of my surveys I said that life’s pretty good right now, which kind of scares me.
It makes me wonder just when something will happen.
Well, bingo.
I’m not close to him.
I never was.
But still.
And I think the biggest thing for me is making sure he’s saved.
I knew I was supposed to talk to him.
God laid it on my heart.
I was scared.
And I wanted to do it alone with him.
I thought I wouldn’t do it, but God gave me the chance.
It was awkward at first, and I didn’t know what to say.
We talked.
I can’t say for sure if he’s saved, of course, but if someone can confidently say "I believe in heaven and hell. I believe in God and Jesus. I believe Jesus died for everyone", then isn’t that enough to get into heaven?
I’m confused about how to feel, even with my faith in God.
If it’s that way for me, what’s it like for all them?
Oh, dear.