Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I haven't written in awhile, I know--my last entry in here was a prayer ten days ago. Tonight was youth, and instead of the usual "David talks, we listen" deal, we had an "open discussion", during which we talked about David's Top Ten Do's and Don'ts of Dating. =] I did of course agree with everything he covered because I've been thinking about that with myself A LOT. I'm not sure how much of it I've written about, but I had thought about my boundaries, about what total abstinence and purity mean to me, and all that, and as David was covering this stuff, I couldn't find a single place where I need to improve or where I had messed up in the past. THAT is what has been worrying me the most, in my Christian walk as well. Not that I think everything is perfect, but I'm SATISFIED, because where I am now is so much better than before, but only in certain ways. I'm settling for "okay", thinking that where I am is good enough, when it's not! I asked God earlier tonight to just search my heart, strip away anything that is hindering our relationship and my potential, and reveal to me places in my life that need to be changed. I'll keep praying about that, and I believe- I know -God will do that. Even if I don't realize it, I'll look back sometime down the road, and see a difference.
God changes us, guys! It's always amazing to witness that, whether it's your life or someone else's. For example, my testimony is pretty boring. I was never into drugs, sex, blatant rebellion, or anything "exciting". I've had my fair share of lies and attitudes, but nothing that anyone would consider "big". However, it's those little aspects that God changed in my life. My thoughts on certain matters, my relationships with people and being observant of how I act and my view of myself, even...God has affected all that, and I am so thankful! I can only pray that He would not allow me to settle into the annoying rut of acceptability and satisfaction with myself and where I'm at. To me, that seems incredibly dangerous...almost like the whole "pride comes before the fall" thing.
Well, it's late, and although I could go on and on, I should get to bed, and you should go read your bible. =]]
Until later,
Courtney
2.26.08
Monday, February 11, 2008
Sunday, February 10, 2008
I don't really know what to say tonight, except that I haven't written in a long time. I've developed a prayer list of seven people who I want to begin praying for daily, although they aren't the only ones. Sometimes, though, I run out of things to say for those who aren't saved. I find myself repeating the same petitions over and over, because I know that there is only so much God can do for them if they haven't been adopted into His family...
This morning in Sunday-school we discussed John 15:1-8, about the vine and the branches. We talked about what that means spiritually and how we can apply it to our lives. One of the questions we had to answer was something along the lines of "What does a Christian producing good fruit look like?" No one really had a better answer than "Alex" (lol), so I went to quote Galatians 5:22, which flat-outs list characteristics that kind of person would have. For some reason, though, someone shot me down before I even finished. I didn't understand--I thought it was a pretty alright answer. But as I'm sitting here thinking about, God is reminding me of 2 Timothy 1:7, which says "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline". I'm not sure what that spirit of power should be used for, but I do know that I don't always display that. Now I'm not saying I need to demand every one's attention--not at all. But maybe, just maybe, I shouldn't give up so easily when someone doesn't like my ideas or thoughts. If their reason for thinking that my answer is incorrect is a JUST reason, and not a selfish or immature one, then fine. Otherwise, I should make sure my point gets across, and ignore the feeling of insecurity that kind of person would cause me.
You know, it's interesting how I start an entry with nothing to say, and end up writing three pages in this composition book. Writing helps me clear my thoughts and allow God to speak to me.
It must be an amazing feeling to know that you're right where God wants you. Oh, I'm so proud of Alex! I can't wait to see what God does with him!
...I can't wait to see what God does with me!
Until later,
Courtney
I don't really know what to say tonight, except that I haven't written in a long time. I've developed a prayer list of seven people who I want to begin praying for daily, although they aren't the only ones. Sometimes, though, I run out of things to say for those who aren't saved. I find myself repeating the same petitions over and over, because I know that there is only so much God can do for them if they haven't been adopted into His family...
This morning in Sunday-school we discussed John 15:1-8, about the vine and the branches. We talked about what that means spiritually and how we can apply it to our lives. One of the questions we had to answer was something along the lines of "What does a Christian producing good fruit look like?" No one really had a better answer than "Alex" (lol), so I went to quote Galatians 5:22, which flat-outs list characteristics that kind of person would have. For some reason, though, someone shot me down before I even finished. I didn't understand--I thought it was a pretty alright answer. But as I'm sitting here thinking about, God is reminding me of 2 Timothy 1:7, which says "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline". I'm not sure what that spirit of power should be used for, but I do know that I don't always display that. Now I'm not saying I need to demand every one's attention--not at all. But maybe, just maybe, I shouldn't give up so easily when someone doesn't like my ideas or thoughts. If their reason for thinking that my answer is incorrect is a JUST reason, and not a selfish or immature one, then fine. Otherwise, I should make sure my point gets across, and ignore the feeling of insecurity that kind of person would cause me.
You know, it's interesting how I start an entry with nothing to say, and end up writing three pages in this composition book. Writing helps me clear my thoughts and allow God to speak to me.
It must be an amazing feeling to know that you're right where God wants you. Oh, I'm so proud of Alex! I can't wait to see what God does with him!
...I can't wait to see what God does with me!
Until later,
Courtney
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